So I’ve been a little conflicted about writing this, because it’s a little out there. It’s easy to get turned off by the name of it or have different associations to the words. BUT! This is a personal blog and I’m writing about my experiences.
I have always been sensitive to energy. It’s not something that I was conscious about when I was younger. It really wasn’t until my spiritual reawakening that I really understood it. For a while, I thought I was maybe an empath. It wasn’t until my circle had a class on energy two years ago, that I had described some of my experiences with it. One of the things I had said was that sometimes when I am working, I worked as a cashier at Walmart at the time, there would be a person who had a lot of energy and it made me feel drunk. My Den Mother gave me this look and told me later that I could be an energy vampire, because she is one as well.
Psy-vamps, or psychic vampires, is another name, but it isn’t named that because they’re “psychic”. Basically psy-vamps are people who have a defect, so to speak, that causes them to not keep energy or produce enough of it. It could be something wrong with one of their chakras or something going on with their body that causes them to not produce energy. It’s not malicious, it’s a natural occurring thing and they have to feed off of energy in order to restore themselves, like a diabetic not being able to produce insulin so to speak. They may feel really tired all of a sudden and then once they find an external source of energy, they feel great. There’s many ways to feed though. It’s not like psy-vamps have to drink people’s blood or anything like that. I’ll add a link if you’d like to read some more details on it.
When my Den Mother told me I may be a psy-vamp, I definitely kept that in mind and did some research on it, but nothing really clicked with me at the time. Again, it was two years ago and we’ve talked about it on and off throughout the years. I asked how she fed and for some advice.. When I tried to do those things, I didn’t really “feel” it. I reserved the opinion that maybe I wasn’t a psy-vamp, because I just figured if I was feeding off of something, I’d know it. But last month, something happened to make me think otherwise.
My boyfriend was on a 6 day training session eight hours away last month. During that week of him being gone, I was sick damn near every other day and my health plummeted at the end of the week. The first night he was gone I had a terrible migraine, the day after that I had another. The little allergies I had turned into a full blow flu. I had horrible diarrhea. On top of that, each day that he was gone, my back was in more pain each day and at the end of it, I felt like a 90 year old. I thought about going to the hospital the night before he came home, because I felt sooooo sick. Once he got home, my health went back to normal! I’m not talking like a few days after, I’m talking about literally as soon as we were physically present with each other, all of the terrible sickness I had was gone, beyond the stuffiness from my cold/flu.
It opened my mind again to the idea that maybe I really am an energy vampire. I had messaged my Den Mother about it the next day. She said that her husband was her primary feeding source and that it made sense that my health had a major decline from the long distance. Mind you, my bf and I have lived together for three years so consciously or not, if I was an energy vampire, he has been my primary source for three years. After this realization, I had looked up my research again and found a great site that talked about the symptoms of being an energy vampire and it ALL rung a bell.
I am a psy vamp. I’m not an empath necessarily, it’s just a product of being conscious of energy, because I need an external energy source to sustain me. With that being said, as I said in my last blog, I watch a distance reiki channel on YouTube and she casts out energy and I feed off of it. Since I have became conscious of it, I’ve felt really in balance and in control. I work with the public and I hate it, especially because I work around a lot of really negative women and their energy really drains me. Since I’ve been watching those videos and have been able to sustain my energy needs, I’ve been able to erect shields and block the negative energy around me instead of feeding on it. It made me really in tune with my crystals and I have some specifically for work to protect me from lower vibrations.
I had a really fascinating conversation with a new friend last night. I was talking about how I cycle through groups of friends like I do with toothbrushes. She threw out the idea that it’s probably just because I do feed off of those people and after so long I just can’t take their energy anymore. Because I am so receptive to energy, I stay around these people for an extended period and then there’s just a build up of the excess crap that they send off and it turns me away. It makes so much sense and I never really thought about it that way. It really makes me reflect on my relationships and the manner in which they’ve ended on. It will certainly be interesting to see how my relationships will be, now that I am actively conscious of my energy needs and being about to take care of them without having to accidentally feed off of them.
My friend said that maybe this is my purpose, my psychic vampirism. Because I am conscious of the energy and I do have a psychic awareness, it’s my purpose to go through different groups of people to learn lessons, but to also teach them. I did a tarot reading for her and her boyfriend who is a very dear friend and my readings were really amazing. My mind gets blown each time I do a reading. Perhaps it is my purpose to go around and share my spirituality to try to help others find their own spiritual journey? I’d love to learn to be a reiki practitioner and perhaps my energy awareness could even be used to heal people, beyond the physical. I feel that I am finally on to finding my true purpose in life and it makes sense that I don’t really know what I want to do in terms of a conventional career. Maybe this blog is the first step in to making this a lifestyle. Being able to meet new people and help them along the way.
I know that this is a concept and it may be too outward thinking for some, but this is my truth. This is my reality. I am an outward thinker. I’ve always felt like I have had one foot in this world and my other foot in another. I am an energy vampire. I’m no Dracula or anything like that. I’m not even bragging about it. I didn’t even really believe that I was until recently. I hope that this has helped you maybe think about your own interactions with energy. Whether you’re conscious of it or not, we all have chakras and energy and it does interact with our life, because it’s a natural part of us. I really recommend reading about it or even just watching YouTube channels. It’s really informative and helps you open your mind to new concepts and allows you to pick up on higher vibrations.
Link to Lune Innate, master reiki practitioner on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCPCHuLiHbhG3s_YxhMLOn6Q
Link to information on psy vampirism, what it’s about, symptoms and learning how to control it: http://sphynxcatvp.nocturna.org/articles/dyscracia-psivamps.html